Some News is Great News

The results are in.  At six weeks, HcG levels should measure anywhere between 1,080 to 56,500.

My HcG levels are 46,270.  

Everyone exhale.  Whoo.

Unconventional Means

I did something a little unconventional.  After my freakout about disappearing symptoms yesterday, I finally called one of the local fertility clinics and asked for beta testing.  Of course, they promptly said, "No."  Apparently, my doctor's signature holds more weight than I thought, and crosses medical borders into independent clinic land.  Damn it.

But after listening to my sob story about recurrent miscarriages and the like, the receptionist recommended something I'd never heard of before.  There is a site online called MyMedLab.com that will take your blood, test it, and post it on your account, all for bargain basement prices.  Sounds weird?  It is.

I went on the site and looked up HcG.  They  had the test available for the low online price of $56.  I whipped out my credit card and immediately signed up.  

After printing out the order, I was sent to the local MedLab for my blood draw in the Castro, where a very nice, gay, ex-Navy man drew my blood.  It was absolutely painless.  Remarkable, considering my aversion to needles.  I literally felt nothing.  I love that man.

So in a few days or less, I will see my results.  If my HcG levels are low, I'll anticipate a potential miscarriage.  If they're sky-high, I'll be at ease...for now.  

Of course, I'm praying for the latter.  You should be, too, btw.

One is the Loneliest Number

My numbers came back. My HcG is now at one.

On the good side of it, (if there is a good side of it) I don't have to have a D&C. It also indicates that I didn't have an ectopic. Everything expelled immediately, so I won't have any lingering tissue making infections in my uterus.

On the bad side, my HcG is now at one. It's almost as if it never happened, never existed, never conceived.

It's as if I was never pregnant at all.

Now the only question is, will I ever get pregnant again?